All the pieces

i have this feeling i cant shake, its a deep longing, a yearning. i have so much inside of me that is part of me, but it has no escape, no outlet, no expression. Its so hard to live inside of a tent when i was meant for open fields and oceans. Thus, is my soul. i have so many experiences, stories, feelings, dreams, heartaches, joys, longings, worship, and life. i want a canvas stretched wide to pour myself out on! i want to be loosed from this entrapment that is my flesh and this world! I want to be with my Father, i want to spend my days running barefoot in the sand! i want to be immersed in his ocean! i want to ride on his winds and soar above creation! i want to dance with gladness and a joy unadulterated! i cant take this world and its cold steely bars, its death-grip on me that holds me in reality, a reality that is not my home!! i want to walk arm in arm with my savior and hear him tell me about how he loves me, how he adores me and how passionately madly loves me. I want to tell him that i love him too, and show him my life like a child shows their parents a drawing, i want to pour myself out in front of him and ask him to fix me and improve me! i want to display for him all the workings in my life that he has done, and explain to him why i love them so much....even though he already knows. I WANT HIM TO FEEL MY LOVE! i yearn to be free from the trappings of this flesh, this entombment, this embodiment of sin. I want my spirit to soar before my God and be in fellowship with him. All the pieces of me, will be expressed in his heaven. i will be free...... but for now i wait....