Who am i. What am i. What is my purpose? Why am i here. What am i doing? Why do i....
My hearts meditation is almost constantly focusing on these things, and its dangerous. Its dangerous because the answers are mostly disheartening. i am a liar, i am a thief, i am an adulterer, i am a murderer, i am covetous, i am greedy, i am selfish, i am proud, i am a fool, and i am wrong. i am, a sinner. There is a reason why i don't capitalize the letter i when referring to myself. Its not because i have terrible grammar. It is because i am unimportant. i am fallen, i am broken, i am shame. Regardless of myself and the state of my nature, i have hope. My hope rests in my Lord Jesus Christ. He is perfect, He is wise, He is righteous, He is holy, He is mighty, He is kindness, He is love, He is rest, He is just, He is forgiving, He is pure, He is life, He is unselfish, He is Lord, He is time, He is the word of truth, He is the lamb, He is glory, He is Mercy and Grace come down into flesh, He is Adonai. Most importantly though, i am HIS, and He is MINE. Who i am is surpassed by His call for my life and His plans that He has made for me. His greatness surpasses all of my failures, and my failures to come. i am made new through Him, and through His life giving sacrifice. i am my beloveds, and my beloved is mine. i am made holy for He is holy and He resides within the depths of my soul. He covers me, He makes me a new creation, He makes me a son; a son with a purpose. i will always be what i am; i am a monster. but thankfully Gods mercy is never changing and new every morning. i have died, the monster is dead......but it is now Christ who lives within me. i am unimportant, who i was is unimportant. Christ is important, Christ is divine. i no longer let my heart think about what i was because i am made new. i am made precious in the arms of Christ. I am forgiven.
Galations 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
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